luahan hati

seronok baca blog2 rakan TTC sekalian...betul2 menggambarkan apa yg terbuku di hati..sebak pn ada..byk kali dh air mata terkeluar bila baca kata2 pbakar semangat dr derang..so hilang skit sedih di hati :)

kalu nk ikutkn, bknnya x leh nk heart2heart ngn encik suami psl TTC ni tp bila nk mula conversation ja, mesti trkedu or x trluah.. ye la, aku ni lbh kpd people pleaser, apa yg menyemak dlm kepala x terkongsi dgn org...

dulu2 ms ank dara, nanges2 ni aku x suka..air mata = lemah..so mmg pyh nk tgk aku ni nanges but if i have to, msti sembunyik2 nanges..huhu.. tp sejak status TTC di melekat di diriku, air mata ni mmg free la tp still sembunyi2..dengar org preggy ja, tunggu la aku cpt2 cr toilet ke hapa ke utk melepaskan air empangan ni..tgh solat pun leh jalan gak air mata..ikut sk ati dia plak..

bohongla kalu xnak pikir..cmne pn msti pikir gak..tp maybe usaha aku skit sgt kot, mcm x bersungguh2..dhla penakut..bila kena schedule wat HSG, aku period pastu chicken out bila nk reschedule..smpi ke sudah x pegi..huhu..

x lama lg nk pose..xpe la, kita fokus dl nk beribadat dlm bln ramadhan ni..apa2 plan ttg TTC, pas raya la br mulakan langkah..harap2 Allah beri kekuatan utk bersungguh2 dlm usaha TTC ni...aminn..

knock! knock!

i've lost counts on my attempts at blogging..when my friend gave me a link to http://soontobeamummy.blogspot.com  , i'm attracted with her takes on TTC issues anynomously..so, i figured why the hell not?  so, this blog is specially written for me to express my inner thoughts, desires n feelings on whatever matters without the risks of offending anyone! hehe

so, let's see if this blog is a keeper or not... :)